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02 October 2015 @ 11:15 pm
192: Things I Don't Want To Think About  
[5] To write even one story with the hope that the material is publishable and still feel like I haven't accomplished anything worthwhile in life; or to never write one at all and be completely fulfilled about life anyway;

[4] To be thirty and financially struggling; or to be forty and never having a stable romantic relationship with another person ever, regardless if it's a man or a woman;

[3] To be surrounded by quality friends but start losing a few of them along the way; or to be surrounded by a quantity of friends and never worry about losing them at all;

[2] To be at an age, no matter how financially, emotionally and psychologically secure, when my parents finally die and leave my brother alone with me; and to find a way to tell my brother somehow in words I know he will never understand that our parents are gone forever, and that it's just going to be me and him for the rest of our lives;

[1] To die before my brother does.
Feeling: listlesslistless
Listening to: "Amelie" by Carney